Maybe I need an unstructured blazer

Story + process + artifact. Anything less is a cheap tchotchke.

11:44AM

This journal sometimes loses track of what it wants to be.

It tends to get a little precious sometimes, with me worrying about tossing off an enlightened Rick-Rubinesque post for all to consider while blowing across hot tea.

But at the end of the day, it's me sweeping out the warehouse and not much more. A gill net for the week's Big Thoughts that come in during the dog's afternoon poop walk.

It's often me repeating myself.

Not because I forgot what I wrote a month ago, but because a new idea arrives and melds with an old one. The goalposts shift and I need to rewrap my head around a constantly moving target.

It's me brain-dumping, me keeping my writing chops up, me priming the pump. Me slowly writing this over-story in real time and sharing the process because art is equal parts story, process, and artifact.

Something the prompt generation hasn't realized yet, or willfully ignores.

So here's something you may have heard before:

There's a lot I'm trying to push under the door as it closes.

Physical pressings for the Young Tobacco Records and Nap Factory Records back catalog. The new Christmass release. A new Fixation Arc tune. More Autobody songs. More City Water experiments. A winter percussion score. Tour experiments. Tone poems. Flash fiction. Micro-soundtracks. On-the-road memoir stuff for the Substack. Painting, sculpture, more writing, more writing, more writing.

Open loops.

There are a lot of them right now in this weird little universe I've created for myself.

And I'm in a time of transition.

It's not a sudden thing, but I see it coming. I smell it in the wind, see it peeking around the corner like the trash witch in Mulholland Drive.

I sense it in the way I feel, the way I think, the way I dress and the way I see the future. Maybe it's an age thing. Maybe it's why I am trying to push so much under the door.

Maybe I need an unstructured blazer.

What I’m reading: Faith, Hope and Carnage (Nick Cave and Sean O'Hagan)

What I'm listening to: The Power of Failing (Mineral)

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